Tuesday, December 11, 2007
Pain - Part 9 : Clash!
This is a continuation of PAIN from previous parts. Please click on the links below to go directly to the previous parts.
Part 8 - Zaki ; Part 7 - Kantoi ; Part 6 - Shadows at the gate ; Part 5 - Pregnant
part 4 ; part 3 ; part2 ; part 1

Idham walked to the edge of the park and took the gravel pathway which led to tarmac road of Taman Pelangi. He once again headed in the direction of Anita's house. The morning sun has in all of its glory kissed away most of the dew drops from grass and fallen leaves on the side walk. He weaved through the back-lanes in between houses, finding a short-cut to house no. 26, street 8/Taman Pelangi. The aroma of breakfast being cooked from the neighbourhood reminded him that he did not have dinner the night before. As he approached the T junction of street 8, he increased his pace. From a few doors away, he saw Anita was reversing her car our of her driveway. Then, as Anita came out to lock her gate - she saw him.
"Idham!! what on earth are you doing here so early??"
He brought his fingers to his lips....."Syyyyy, can I come with you?" He gestured towards her car.
"Idham.....are you ok?" She said, then immediately continued, "Yes ....of course".

She drove off towards her work place. Her curiosity about what was happening to Idham gave way to her own burning desire to tell him what she had experienced that night."Idham, I was so scared last night...and I wanted to call you but I didn't because i didn't want your wife to be suspicious why I call at such hour in the night."
Then she told him about the bell, and the shadow at the gate."I think Zaki came back last night!" Her voice so certain, but her eyes were searching for affirmation from Idham.
"You thought it was Zaki or you wanted the man to be Zaki?" Quizzed Idham. His tone was that of a jealous man.
"Both" Her reply was short. She bit her lips, trying to hide her emotion from being visible to Idham. For the first time, she noticed that Idham was jealous, and she actually liked it. She decided to test Idham's reaction further."I was waiting ... I was hoping it was him, and I wanted to call him in and cook him breakfast".
"Oh yea.....Was that it? You had breakfast on your mind.....or you wanted him for something else....Were you squeezing your legs together when you were peeking Zaki's shadow through the curtains?", Idham's voice started to tremble with emotion.
Anita was hurt with that remark. "How dare you talk of me like that.....".
"Like what?".
"Never mind.....where do you want to go so that I can drop you. I am going to work and don't have much time to listen anymore to your dirty thoughts" Anita knew her curiosity and her own game had back-fired on her.
It was Idham' turn to play a game. He decided not to disclose that it was him that night at her gate. He too was hurt that Anita was still thinking of Zaki despite their intimacy in his car half way up the Genting Highland. Then he remembered her bra in his trouser's pocket.
"I came to return this....I thought you might need them" He said as he put the crumpled bra on her lap.
"oh my God....! I have forgotten all about that one" She said, without looking at Idham.
"Lina found them in my car....you should have just called me last night. I was alone. She left with our daughter".
"Left? where to?". Asked Anita.
"Yea...left as in she stormed off, angry and I don't know where to?".
"Oh my God, Idham! what have you done?". She pretended surprise, but gleefully happy inside.
"Sorry.....shouldn't it be, what have WE done?".
"Whatever! If you want me to feel guilty for you, then you can think that I am guilty. But honey, you are a grown man.....I prefer and will respect you more if you are accountable for your own action!". She showed her annoyance when Idham alluded that she was to be blamed.

The conversation wasn't going well. At that instant he hated her. She too was not in the mood to be dragged into his domestic problem. The fact that she has been dragging him into her problem all this while didn't figure at all in her mind."You can drop me at the next traffic light" He said, withdrawn.
"As you wish" Her tone was acidic.
He left her car with a bang of the door, and didn't look back. She punched the steering wheel with a scream, "Sh*t!".

Idham walked towards the Banyan tree just off the road, at the entrance to the Raintree club.There he found an empty bench and sat silently nursing a pain in his heart. He was hurt that she didn't even notice how he was suffering, how tired he was out of not sleeping and eating the whole night. He was hurt that she didn't care about him as much as he cared about her. Not even half of how much he cared. What hurt him the most, was Anita's 'couldn't careless' attitude about what was happening between him and his wife. And he had thought.....there was something between them, especially from the way she had kissed him.

Anita sped off, not even slowing down at road 'humps' along the stretch of Ampang Hilir. Catching time was not the reason for her speeding and reckless driving. It was her anger! She was down-right pissed with Idham for assuming she was a horny tart waiting for Zaki when in actual fact she was scared stiff. She thought that Idham had a little more regards for her, and would treat her with more dignity and respect, especially after the passion he showed in the car up the Genting Highland.

Zaki meanwhile has recovered well from the wounds inflicted on his brutally abused body. he had taken shelter in a friend's house, Dali. Of all his friends it was Dali who he felt he could trust his life with. They went to the same school in their primary then separated during secondary school when Zaki was selected to go to a boarding school. Dali remained in the little town, and started to earn a living when he failed his SPM. Dali became a car mechanics, a skill he learned not from any school but more from his passion for cars. It was a passion which had introduced him to the dark-side of auto industry - 'Kereta Potong!'. That was a secret about Dali which Zaki didn't know about.
Future continuation will be updated in Mr Froggies blog.

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Saturday, April 7, 2007
Summer Re-union.

The day Azura was arriving, I was up before dawn. I was excited, thrilled and nervous. I chose the clothes I wanted to wear, and went to a hair dresser to have my hair blown dry. She knew I was to be at the airport welcoming her.
I was there one hour before her flight was due to arrive, a bouquet of red roses in my hand and a sling beg over my shoulder with her gift inside.

Azura walked straight into my embrace. She jumped into my arms and we hugged and kissed. My world came alive again. My heart bloomed and happiness filled every part of me. I knew more than I ever did before that I loved her so much. She held and squeezed my hands like she didn’t want to let me go.
Momentarily we broke from embrace. Then she giggled and used tissues from her handbag to wipe my cheeks and my lips.
“Lipstick all over.…sorry…” she said between her little laughter.
“I don’t mind …I love you” Said I.
Then she wiped off any remnants of lipstick from her lips. And after, she kissed me again. I just love it when she initiated the kissing.

I helped her with her luggage – two big Echolac suitcases and one trolley bag of the same brand and all three in matching color.
Once we were in the black cab, she pulled out a small box from her hand-bag.
“For you….Hope you like it” She handed a well wrapped box of a gift.
I took the opportunity to give her my gift, the Ring, which I have been carrying in my shoulder beg.
“And darling, this is for you …bought with my wages from the one month I was working” And she accepted my gift with a kiss to my cheek.

“A ring!!! It is beautiful…..I love it ! Thank you D” She exclaimed, and I received yet another smother on my lips. We embraced and kissed passionately and shamelessly at the back of the black cab.

Then she asked me to open the gift she had given me. I carefully unpeeled the wrapper. Slowly and steadily although my hands were shaking.

“ Ohhhh my God….!!! It must have cost you a fortune!” I said in disbelief.
“I love you….and it is worth every cents paid”

I held her face in my palms and tenderly kissed her lips. A slow lingering kiss, sucking on her lips…..feeling their soft tender texture. Then prompting for her mouth to open, and my tongue searched for hers.
It was at that point, my tears came trickling down my cheek. Then….I felt the same warm drops of tears from hers.

And we embraced to steady our trembling bodies. Simultaneously, we whispered
“I missed you…I love you”.

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Friday, April 6, 2007
The Ring!

I have been busy the last few days, too busy to continue my reminiscence about Azura but not busy enough to shake her off my mind. She was there - everywhere.

That first summer separation with her was the longest summer I ever had. I found myself counting days for her return, and waiting for morning to arrive to bring me another postcard or aerogramme from her.

Midway through the summer Azura suggested that I take up a summer job. Besides earning extra pocket money, it would help to occupy my mind and my days, she said.
I had a friend who was studying in Nottingham and he was working in a Frozen Peas processing company not far from where he lived. Before the week was over, I was comfortably settled sharing his room and working as a production operator. My tasks were to pick up any unwanted elements from five of the production belts - where washed peas traveled on their way to cold storage for rapid freezing. I had to keep watchful eyes on the belts - but my mind was with Azura. I would be wondering what she was doing at the same time in Malaysia. The job was monotonous and repetitive - but my thoughts about Azura were not, always colorful and sweet. I would play back her kisses - the tenderness of her lips and silky smooth touch of her skin. I would imagine our future - then I would be really anxious about the differences in our status.

At the end of one month, I quit for it was time to return to London. College would be re-opening and Azura was returning in three days time. All together, after paying my share of living expenses to my Nottingham friend I managed to save more than pound-sterling150. In those days when a fish and chip cost only 50pence, a hundred and fifty quid were really good money.

I went shopping -I walked in out of many jeweler shops looking for the best ring which was within my budget. Finally I chose a silver ring with a solitaire ruby. Memory of the ring always brings sadness to my heart. The ring was given to her with love and returned to me with tears.

I still have the ring in my safe keeping.

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Monday, April 2, 2007
Kamasutra!

During those days, there were no mobile phones and internet was not the in-thing. I wrote and mailed letters to Azura almost everyday. I used aerogramme, I used postcards, I sued colourful letter writing pads and I have also used napkins - I used them all to carry my words of love and my words of yearning for her presence.
Azura would asked me to wait at a certain time, at a certain public phone so that she could call me. I would be happiest every time she called - which was like once every other day. And just to let me know she was missing me too, she posted me letters to carry her own words of love and affection. Receiving her letters which were always signed off with her lipstick and kisses was the highlights of my summer days. In one of them, she sent me strands of her hair. In another - when she was in a particular melancholic mood - there was sumdges of tears too.
I kept them all. And until today, there is a shoe box stored safely on the top drawer of my personal cabinet, filled with letters and special pictures of the two of us.

Azura shared wih me her daily activities. How she spent time window shopping, not the ladies section of the stores but instead looking for gentleman's stuff with me on her mind. She shared how she visualize me modelling the clothes she was selecting. And when she was visiting families and friends, how she imagined introducing me to them as her fiance, or her husband. Those were the content of her letters - similar to the contents of her heart, she assured me when I queried what was in her heart during one of our phone calls.

To her questions about how I spent my time - I simply say, I spent my time waiting for her letters, her phone calls and her return. Then quickly added, that I have also been busy reading books about the finer arts of how to please a woman. She giggled feverishly. I teased her that she had a naughty mind for assuming that I was reading Kamasutra! She burst into a laughter - and I joined her laughing. Happiness was knowing that she was happy.

Tonight, I was flipping through my old copy of the Kamasutra and wondered whether she uses the positions and postures from our personal favourite pages with her husband. It hurts!

I am missing you even more!

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Saturday, March 31, 2007
First Summer!

Our first summer together arrived. Azura told me she has received a ticket from her dad to fly home for the summer holiday. She asked me if I wanted to join her? I could not afford it, I said.
She held my hand, and rested her head on my shoulder as we watched doves feeding at the Trafalgar square. Her feet shuffled and drew a heart shape on the tarmac. Then I felt her body shaking. She was crying, sobbing.
"I will miss you...." She said between sobs.
I squeezed her hand and reassured her that the summer break would pass quickly before we came together again.
She looked straight into my eyes, smiled and asked me if I would join her for the holiday in Malaysia if she were to buy the tickets for me.

It was during that conversation while watching the doves and pigeons that I discovered who her father was, and suddenly felt distance and remote from where she was.
Azura, a daughter of a well known Malaysian conglomerate chairman, with a string of royalty bestowed titles to his name. Azura, an eagle soaring in the sky and I a mere 'pipit' catching worms on the ground.
However, at the moment, my heart flew away from both of us. I realized then that our status were so different. How could I ever cross the marbled threshold of her family home adorned with pearly gates and gold plated taps and sinks. I could not - I did not know how, and I would not be comfortable to.

At that moment, I could not say to Azura what I was feeling. I did not want to hurt her. I also was not ready to hurt myself for sure. So I let the information stayed within.

On the day of her departure, I sent Azura to the Heathrow airport. I helped her to check in, and was in a shock when I realized the ticket she was holding was a first class ticket. Azura, a girl born with silver spoons. But, all this while never once she indicated in any way - for Azura has always been humble and down to earth in everyway.
It was not her - it was me who was conscious of the status differences.
The shoes was too huge for my tiny village feet, which did not know how it feel to wear any shoes until I was thirteen. That too because I had to go to a boarding school and my widowed late mother had to borrow money from the local rubber wholesaler to pay for my first pair of white canvas shoes - not even a Bata one.
Azura must have noticed the little tears welling up in my eyes when she hugged me at the departure gate, for she took tissues from her handbag and wiped them away.
"I love you and will be thinking of you all the time I am there.." She was strangely strong that day. She later confessed she cried buckets once she was out of my sight. That was Azura, the girl who hid her own fear and sadness for my sake.
The summer did not pass as quickly as I had wished. I missed her dearly.

Tonight, I received a text message from her and it said
"Funny but true - I was looking at our pictures taken at Stratford and then I saw a familiar one one in your blog".

I smiled to myself.

I long to meet her again......!

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Friday, March 30, 2007
Tears and Smile, co-existed!

That spring, Azura and I became close friends. We walked to college together and shared our cooking and shpping chores. I moved to a bedsitter closer to her flat. Azura became more trusting with me and with her feeling.
During one of our more quiet moments, she showed me the scar in her heart. A scar left behind by lies and betrayals. She built a fotress around her. A fotress she admitted crumbled not due to dynamite but due to kindness and caring. And it was during the dinner on the night of our first lips kiss that she told me, I was the prince with the kindness that has stolen her heart.
I too confessed that my heart was stolen the moment I saw her at the arrival hall at the Heathrow ariport when she first arrived.

Azura is special. So special. She was by no means the prettiest girls I have known and not the type who would a beauty parade. But she was the most beautiful, and the kind of girl who would make any mothers want to have as their daughter in law for their treasured sons.
Azura's beauty was in her demenure, always graceful and composed. Her beauty was in her eyes, sparkling and radiating a special glow from her heart. She won me from the first time I set eyes on her with her beautiful smile. She smiled generously and trustingly - radiating and captivating.

We became more than close friend before spring ended. I remember the moments and will always treasure till the end of time.
We went for an excursion to the birth place of Shakespeare - Stratford-upon-Avon. We cruised the river Avon, and walked the parks along the river banks. We delved into Shakepearean literature - taking turns reading phrases from his many famous creations. We stopped under trees, sat on benches and from holding hands, squeezing fingers - we kissed passionate kisses.
We were breathless and senseless with passion and emotion, tears and smile co-existed.

When our coach arrived back bringing us home, I invited her to spend the night at my place. We showered. She first then me. She looked so beautiful wrapped up in my T Shirt and Pelikat. I asked to help and she allowed me to blow dry her hair. I was in heaven, to see how I transformed her look. With her hair done, but also with every trusting gaze into my eyes she blushed. We kissed, this time long lingering tender kisses. She told me, in whispers that I was a very good kisser. I murmered and kissed her heavier and deeper. I told her, I love the touch of her skin and the soft and warm kisses she was giving me too.

We were more than very good friends. We were lovers, two people in love. We were lovers, two hearts united by caring, understanding, and one wish and one wish only - to make the other happy.

That night, Azura and I officially transcended into manhood and womanhood.
We embraced on my single bed, whispering words of love. None from Shakespeare, but all our own from our hearts.

Tonight, I did not call Azura for I knew she was at her parents with her husband. My tears trickled my cheeks - and a smile spread across my lips. Tears and smile co-existed even in remiscing about you, Azura.

I miss you!

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Thursday, March 29, 2007
Kissing a sleeping beauty

Mr Froggies is feeling frogsXited today. There is a good reason for that.
But I just realized that I have not said much about me.

I am but a froggie, lost between an open lake and the deep blue sea
I am good looking for those who are half-blind, but charming as any froggie should be
The last time I kissed a sleeping beauty - she turned into a princess just like what you read in the tales of fairy.
Shame that her prince has been so blind to see
Oh what a beauty she
And what a wonderful romance she can be
I am a Froggie, jiving and dancing
I walk the walk and talk the talk,
and singing free.
I am a romancing Mr Froggie.

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